"Or do you not know that your body is a temple

of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? 

You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. 

So glorify God in your body." 

1 Corinthians 6:19

May 1st

      "Today, I sat in the church and read for a while. Alone. Everyone is in Rome for the beatification of my new hero Pope John Paul II. 

In 1 Corinthians, Paul writes that it is our bodies are the temple of Christ...the sad thing is that I've heard that all my life. I wish I would have read that months ago. I've been a slave to my eyes, my emotions, my wants, and my hormones. It was never until after the fact that I wished I hadn't done what I just did - I'm always a genius in hindsight...

...This isn't an issue I have dealt with yet because I didn't see my actions as harmful. But they took away my self respect, my self-value. And then I had none. That is something that was so precious to me. Then after a while, my lack of self-respect just became a non-issue. I was accustomed to feeling this way. I became numb to it. I could do whatever the hell I wanted without even thinking twice about it...what was I thinking???

I wasn't thinking. I should have known better. I do know better. I was such a precious girl. Now, I have the opportunity to be an incredible woman. I'm not going to give myself up to the world again. I give my body to you, Lord!! Romance me. It's only You I need."